...So, ever since i became active on this site, i felt like i was unworthy of being here.
Because i never got many watchers at all.
I dont have millions of llamas.
Millions of favorites.
And people around here really dont notice me too much.
And i felt that because of this, i wasnt a worthy artist, because at the time all the friends i had, especially my boyfriend at the time (thankfully hes an ex now though,) Were setting high standards, because they had SO many watchers...while i had so little. And they kept getting more and more everyday.
And i tried to keep up, doing what they did, trying to post a lot, join groups, etc..
But i finally have realized, that doesnt matter. It doesnt matter how famous i am on here.
Because i love what i do.
And i do it to show how i feel. Thats why ive always drawn, because in a family that you dont fit into, its the only way i felt accepted anywhere.
And im sorry i ever drew artwork for any reason otherwise..to please other people.
So, even though ill always get overly excited when someone new becomes a watcher of mine, i wont base my ability on it anymore.
Because i know im a dang good artist, and people tell me so.
So if people dont like it..then i guess thats their opinion.
But i love it.
And thats all that matters.
Some really good artists may never be noticed..and thats just how it is i suppose, but i dont mind.
But thank you to all my watchers out there, because you make me feel good inside when i come here everyday after coming home to a house filled with hate.
you make me feel loved. and your all very precious to me.
..Thank you all. For being there.